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Hey! I finally created a new account! It's still under construction and all that, but add me for sure!!! I'm gonna try to add my old stuff to that one and backdate it. But dont know when I'll get around to doing that.

Anywho, my name is xdiamond_eyesxx!

~Jordan~

Also, I'm finally gonna change journals when I have time. Maybe this weekend. I dont know. But it's come down to these two names: midnight_tragedy and diamond_eyes. I think it's gonna be diamond_eyes. Anywho, when I finally get around to it I'll let ya'll know. If anyone hasnt told me which one they like better, than do it in the next couple of days to help me make my decision.

I planned on updating about the events of this weekend but I've been freakin busy lately. I'm really stressing out. Tuesday I had a paper due that I didnt even finish. And tomorrow I have a paper due that I have to turn in. I dont even know what to write it on. Today I had a spanish test. On top of everything, we have another freakin rush event tonight. I HATE SPRING RUSH!!!! It beyond sucks!!!

Anyway, I guess I'll go ahead and vent about the weekend. First, Friday was pretty good. I finally got Roy to answer his damn phone, and told him to come hang out at Korissa's at like 2 in the morning. Then I went to Allsup's and he went to Korissa's and we completely missed eachother. Then I begged him to come pick me up because I was drunk and didnt wanna stay at Korissa's. So he got out of bed to come and get me. And me being drunk, asked him why he hated me and why he's been ignoring me. But he maintained that he didnt hate me and didnt know why I thought that. And he just smiled when I asked him why he'd been ignoring me. He definitely knows what he's doing, but we'll get to that in a second. I told him how I thought I was a complete bitch to him for ditching him all last semester, and for making out with Thomas a couple of weeks ago. Then I just started rambling, much like right now, so that I wouldnt have to get out of the car. Then I gave him a hug so that I could leave, and we totally started making out. So that was good.

Then Saturday, me and Beck went to hang out with the golfers again, and he was being such an asshole. Like he wasnt even talking to me, and if he did he was a complete jerk. So here I am all confused and pissed off.

Well, Leslie and I put our heads together and we think that he totally knows what he's doing. He's actually playing MY GAME!!! MY F***IN GAME!!! Everyone knows that after I make out with a guy, I pretty much lose interest. Well, I apparently lost interest in Roy before we did anything and then he started ignoring me, and that got my attention. He was doing to me what I normally do to guys. Then after we made out he went right back to ignoring me and shit. So he still has the freakin upper hand. Oh, and the blog that I wrote on myspace was totally about him. So that maybe he'll read it. Arent I so clever. Either that or I'm just overanalyzing everything and he's just a jerk. Either way, I want to win this game. And to do that, I have to have the last word in all of this. I'm so freakin compicated. I bet this doesnt even make any sense. I'm a crazy bitch!

Ok, so last weekend, Leslie and I went to Sipapu, New Mexico for this leadership conference thing. It was tons of fun because we got to hang out with people that we dont normally hang out with. And some old faces.......like B. Evans, whose always the coolest, and Tucker. But some of the international kids went, and......whoa. Two of them were really hot. Especially Jorge, who I've been staring at since I can remember being at WT. Really, ever since the very first time I saw him, I couldnt take my eyes off of him. And I never knew what it was because, c'mon......I'm never attracted to mexican guys. And he's really from mexico. But wow! I just cant get over how beautiful he is. I think I'm now completely obsessed. He works in the core office with selena, so I always see him because I always hang out in there. And it seems like he's always around. He's also in my radio practicum class, which is way cool. But I'm so stupid around him. I normally keep my cool around guys, but with him, I'm just a blubbering idiot. I'm so ashamed. AND!!! He speaks not only spanish, but FRENCH!!! That is beyond HOT!!! The other day in the core office selena told him to say something in french and he did, and I think I melted. Leslie said that she thought she was gonna have to carry me out of there. He's just so beautiful. I've never known myself to get this worked up over just thinking a guy is cute. I dont know what's wrong with me. Even my friends dont understand it. Oh well! I guess if anything exciting happens with this guy (which it wont because I'm such a spaz), I'll let y'all know!!! Peace out!!
~Jordan~

I'm thinking of closing this journal and opening a new one with a brand new username!! Because I really think that mine is stupid! And plus I've had it forever!!!! But I need a new name. Something that's really cool, that I wont get tired of. So any suggestions would be appreciated!

Some ideas that I have are (assuming they're not too long):

begging4escape
forever_escaping
diamond_eyes
beautifulstranger
broken_silence
fadetoblack
thiefofhearts
midnight_tragedy

Some of these I thought of just now! Tell me which ones you think are cool and which ones are absolutely stupid and ridiculous! Or if you think some would be better if they were combied or anything! I need feedback!!!! I WANT YOUR OPINION!!! YES YOU!!! HIT LEAVE A COMMENT!!! DO IT NOW!!!........haha sorry got a little carried away! But seriously!

So I've been back at school for less than a week and I already have boy drama. I know, I just cant live without it! And this time I swore off boys. This is concentrate on me time. Yeah right! So I went to a golf party friday night. I love those guys! Well, I had my sights set on Roy, mainly because I thought he was ignoring me and WTF that doesnt happen! Roy used to call me to hang out all the time.....and me being my selfish, too busy self, always blew him off. And now he's blowing me off....uh, not gonna let that happen.

But then, Thomas this other golfer who's a senior and is planning on going to law school, starts paying an awful lot of attention to me. This is great! He's really cute and we're having a great time, but oh wait! He used to date my friend Madison! What the hell am I supposed to do now? Of course, I sort of make a big deal about it. I dont want her to hate me or resent me. But it was a long time ago, he says. And she's talking about marraige with her current boyfriend. Which is all true. But Maddy gets attached really easily. She was way more into her and Thomas than Thomas was. And I could tell back when it was happening. And now, she's talking marraige....probably because she's way more into it than her current boyfriend is! This could be bad. Anyway......I did make out with Thomas, but I didnt let it go any farther than kissing. He got my number, and told me that he wants to ask me out. But I dont know how that's gonna go because......I LOST MY CELL PHONE! The very next day in fact! What are the fucking odds!! I'm gonna try to get a new one today though. And I'm also gonna tell Maddy what's going on. A bunch of my friends are telling me it shouldnt matter what she thinks or says about it because she has a boyfriend....who happens to have been "talking to" one of our other friends before they started dating. Oh, the complicity!

And what of Roy?? I think that he was into me. I told him that we should hang out this semester, and he brought up how I always ditched him last semester. And at one point during the night he gave me a huge hug and kissed me on the cheek. And at another point, we were holding hands. I'm gonna make him hate me by the end of all this. But I do feel really bad about it. I keep leading him on, and I dont mean to. I mean, I didnt know the whole Thomas thing was gonna happen. I didnt plan for it to happen. This is gonna be interesting to say the least!

~*~* Top 10 *~*~


---10 Firsts---
First Best Friend::: Cassie Cuevas
First Screenname::: hell I cant remember
First Pet Name::: Cookie
First Piercing::: ears
First Crush::: ummm....Lars David Anderson
First CD::: Spice Girls.....I think it was called Wannabe.....how sad!
First School::: Abernathy
First House Location::: Abernathy
First Kiss::: this guy named Fabian.........it was gross
First Car::: 92 Chevy Cavalier

---9 Lasts---
Last Time You Smoked::: New Year's Eve
Last Food You Ate::: twix
Last Car Ride::: back from my uncle's like 2 hours ago
Last Movie You Watched::: 40 year old virgin
Last Phone Call::: my sister
Last CD You Listened To::: my chemical romance
Last Bubble Bath You Took::: I cant remember.....i should take one tomorrow since it's been so long
Last Song You Listened To::: cross canadian-maybe i miss your body
Last Words You Said::: goodnight?

---8 Have-You-Evers---
Dated A Best Friend::: sort of
Been Arrested::: nope
Been On TV::: not that i can remember
Eaten Sushi::: hell no
Cheated On Your B/F or G/F::: nope
Been On A Blind Date::: yeah.. it wasnt that bad
Been Out Of The Country::: no.......not even mexico man
Been In Love::: no

---7 Things You Are Wearing---
1::: socks
2::: t-shirt
3::: bootylicious sweat pants
4::: nikes
5::: glasses
6::: watch
7::: pony tail holder

---6 Things You've Done Today---
1::: eaten
2::: watched 40 year old virgin
3::: drove home
4::: played with thunder the cat
5::: updated livejournal
6::: checked facebook

---5 Favorite Things (not in any order)---
1::: Harry Potter
2::: Hawthorne Heights
3::: Dashboard Confessional
4::: watching movies
5::: Rupert Grint

---4 people you trust the most
1::: leslie w
2::: candace
3::: beck
4::: ashley

---3 Things You Want To Do Before You Die---
1::: go to europe
2::: walk the red carpet
3::: have sex with a celebrity...haha

---2 Choices---
Vanilla or Chocolate::: vanilla
Hugs or Kisses::: kisses

--1 Person You Want To See Right Now---
1::: no one really

You are somewhat organized, both concrete and abstract, and both introverted and extroverted.

I bet you didn't think you were Snuffleupagus. Let's find out why.

You are both somewhat organized. You have a good idea where you put things and you probably keep your place reasonably clean. You aren't totally obsessed with neatness though. Alloyius Snuffleupagus (and all Snuffleupagus') is not sloppy by nature, but he moves so incredibly slowly that it is impossible for him to be totally organized.

You both are about equally concrete and abstract thinkers. You have a good balance in your life. You know when to be logical at times, but you also aren't afraid to explore your dreams and desires... within limits of course. Snuffy generally has very basic interests, but he explores his abstract sensitive side when he plays his snuffleflute.

You both are somewhat introverted. Originally Snuffleupagus was very shy and was only Big Bird's invisible friend. However as he has aged he has started to build new friendships with new characters. Like Snuffy, you probably like to have some time to yourself. However, you do appreciate spending time with your friends, and you aren't scared of social situations.

Snuffleupagus You scored 54% Organization, 55% abstract, and 61% extroverted!

My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 45% on Organization You scored higher than 58% on concrete-abstra You scored higher than 43% on intro-extrovert

Link: The Your SESAME STREET Persona Test written by greencowsgomoo on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

I erased part of the explanation because it was soooo long but I think it's still gonna be really long. You know I love spamming your friend page with quizzes!!!!!

The Window Shopper Random Gentle Love Dreamer (RGLDf) Loving, hopeful, open. Likely to carry on an romance from afar. You are The Window Shopper. You take love as opportunities come, which can lead to a high-anxiety, but high-flying romantic life. You're a genuinely sweet person, not saccharine at all, so it's likely that the relationships you have had and will have will be happy ones. You've had a fair amount of love experience for your age, and there'll be much more to come. Your exact opposite: The Stiletto Deliberate Brutal Sex Master Part of why we know this is that, of all female types, you are the most prone to sudden, ferocious crushes. Your results indicate that you're especially capable of obsessing over a guy you just met. Obviously, passion like this makes for an intense existence. It can also make for soul-destroying letdowns. Your ideal match is someone who'll love you back with equal fire, and someone you've grown to love slowly. A self-involved or pessimistic man is especially bad. Though you're drawn to them, avoid artists at all costs. BEWARE: The Hornivore CONSIDER: The Gentleman, The Loverboy, The Boy Next Door Link: The 32-Type Dating Test by OkCupid - Free Online Dating. My profile name: escapingu

This sucks!! Avoid artists at all costs! WTF! I love love love guitar players, actors, ARTISTS!!! Oh well, I dont think this is very accurate anyway.

Top Ten Late Night Ponderings

1 What are some of your current favorite songs?
niki fm, ohio is for lovers, hands down(always and forever my favorite song of all time)

2 What are you thinking about right now?
harry potter, the guy whose lj i stole this from....he seems interesting

3 What’s your favorite cold weather drink?
hot chocolate w/ marshmallows of course

4 Snowball fights or Sledding?
snowball fights!

5 Favorite Christmas movie?
love actually

6 Favorite reindeer?
cupid

7 Best stocking Stuffer ever?
those big candy canes full of gum balls

8 Favorite thing about Christmas?
being the laziest person in the world during the break

9 What are you doing right now other than looking at this?
listening to all american rejects....oooh i just got a text message!!

10 If you could spend Christmas anywhere in the world, where would it be?
London with a british boy!!

This sucks!! It kinda saddens me! I've only shagged 7% of the student body!???

Karkaroff


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I want all of my friends to take this quiz because I want to know who you are!!! I meanwhile am gonna run off into hiding before I finally get caught by Voldemort and am tortured and killed.

I went shopping today!!! Yay for new clothes. I also got this really cute pair of brown heels that have pointy toes. I'm so cool. But I realized today that I hate going shopping lately because I've gotten to be such a fat ass. I bought a pair of jeans a size bigger than usual. That always sucks. And I looked terrible in this really cute sweater because I looked so fat. Dressing rooms are the devil! But I love my new shoes.

~Jordan~